I am an amazing mom. I always put my kids first. I make sure they are fed before I am. I can’t remember the last time I bought myself clothes, but they have full wardrobes. I read books. I make crafts. I bake cookies. I am an amazing mom.
But I’m exhausted
If I hear “Mom” one more time I feel like I’m going to explode. The littlest one can never decide if he wants to nurse or he wants to keep tabs on what everyone else is doing….oh but at night? He wants to nurse all.night.long.
I need to get away for just a minute to breathe. To remember what it feels like to be happy outside of my family. I love my family, but I need to be Royeal for just a minute.
I made a list of things that I wanted to do for myself. Things that weren’t related to my “Mom,” “Wife,” or “Attorney” titles. I made that list and the plan was to pick something from it once a month to do.
I haven’t touched that list since I made it
But it’s okay. We’re not going to beat ourself up about it. We’re going to pivot and try something new. I want to go see Wicked. I love musicals. I love Cynthia Erivo and Ariana Grande. I have been seeing tiktoks about this movie for weeks now and I’m so excited. So, that’s what we’re going to do. I’m going to leave that man and his kids at home and I’m taking myself to the movies. I’m going to buy overpriced movie food…actually I’ll probably just sneak some in because them prices are ridiculous. But either way, I’m in there!
I did it! I GTFO of the House!
I went to go see Wicked and Iʼm so glad that I did. Not only did I absolutely LOVE the movie, but I had fun! I sat in the dark and watched the movie by myself. For just a minute, I was able to relax and enjoy myself without having to worry about being something to someone. It was exactly what I needed and I need to remind myself that I need it more.
